Oh, how I hated being pregnant. I hated how I felt, how I looked, just everything. Being pregnant with Kyndal was somehow a little different than my pregnancy with Caylee. Kyndal kept my face clear, I was working while I was pregnant with Caylee so being home and pregnant with Kyndal was a lot more relaxing. I really tried hard to enjoy being pregnant, but I was so ready to meet her. I wish I could turn back the clock, start from the beginning. Go back to the innocence of not knowing, or having the feeling of complete security while being pregnant. I don't have many pictures of me while I was pregnant either time, but I will forever cherish the ones I have.
This was at Amanda's wedding when I was 7 months pregnant. I loved that she asked me to be her Maid of Honour, even though I was rather large at this point.
This was taken by my mom about a week before my world was turned upside down. I love that I have a big goofy smile on my face, (I'm sure Caylee was doing something crazy) I love how content I was in this picture, just *knowing* I was going to meet her soon. I hate how big my nose looks and the fact that this is one of the only good pictures I have of my life with Kyndal.
Today, I miss my baby, I miss her kicks, I miss rubbing her, telling her that I love her, and following her all around my belly. Oh, what I would give to be pregnant with her again.
"Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee;
and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee"