Being Pregnant

Oh, how I hated being pregnant.  I hated how I felt, how I looked, just everything.  Being pregnant with Kyndal was somehow a little different than my pregnancy with Caylee.  Kyndal kept my face clear, I was working while I was pregnant with Caylee so being home and pregnant with Kyndal was a lot more relaxing.  I really tried hard to enjoy being pregnant, but I was so ready to meet her.  I wish I could turn back the clock, start from the beginning.  Go back to the innocence of not knowing, or having the feeling of complete security while being pregnant.  I don't have many pictures of me while I was pregnant either time, but I will forever cherish the ones I have.  

This was at Amanda's wedding when I was 7 months pregnant.  I loved that she asked me to be her Maid of Honour, even though I was rather large at this point.   

This was taken by my mom about a week before my world was turned upside down.  I love that I have a big goofy smile on my face, (I'm sure Caylee was doing something crazy) I love how content I was in this picture, just *knowing* I was going to meet her soon. I hate how big my nose looks and the fact that this is one of the only good pictures I have of my life with Kyndal.

Today, I miss my baby, I miss her kicks, I miss rubbing her, telling her that I love her, and following her all around my belly.  Oh, what I would give to be pregnant with her again.

^"Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee;

and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee"

Jeremiah 1:5